[ livin' ] a .LIE. [M]

[carrie rivers!]

i'm living a lie thats all i can say, it was getting close to morning. i'd say around 1 or 1:30. but carrie didn't know. carrie didn't care at the moment. she was a little busy with a little someone to even care. she was glad no one was up and about. she snorted lightly when she saw what time it was. just what she though 1am. great...aw well. she'd just tell them she got carried away like always. they wouldn't suspect a thing. would...they? she hoped not. hn she doubted. the marks on her neck were as plain as day. weren't they? wouldn't be long until they would disappear and so would his. she didn't make it hard on his neck. did she? heh, okay a lie. boy carrie was such a bad liar eh? carrie quickly let her hand go to the handle of the door and opened it quickly. she hoped the maid was gone. yes she wasn't that poor, not one bit.

she knew how rich this guy was. jake brookes. she went to the casino a couple of times. like they would ever talk in public. thats just how carrie wanted it, just like that. carrie pushed the door open and felt it open as she pulled him in her house. a smirk on her lips. she pressed against him, she wanted this over with and soon. she couldn't take it. oh what fun this would be. she must admit, this would probably be the best fun she'd had in months. they was just something different about jake than any other guy she'd had fun with. he was slightly charming to some extent. she would never tell him that. never. even if he figured it and asked her about it. she would deny it. just like that. she rapped her arms around his neck and kissed him hard on the lips.

she wanted something and jake...he would give her just what she wanted. she knew she had something he wanted and let me tell you she'd give it to him. maybe not everything, but something. there was a slight problem...what if she wanted more? what if he wanted more? what would happen? what if someone found out about this little fling they were having. what would happen if his little gang members tried something and killed her? what would happen then? she quickly pushed the thoughts away, but...she was still a bit worried. unknown to jake..she was still a virgin. no one knew this. she never gave a guy something like this. jake was the first. carrie was saving it for someone she actually did love and yes jake would be taking that away.

but carrie didn't care. okay she did, but she would never tell him that. he would figure it out soon as soon as he entered her. she would just ignore him. how would he act when he noticed? she knew he wouldn't care, aw he came for was just to get something. yes...carrie was the same. a smirk flickered on her lips, but she pushed it away and kissed him harder, leading him to her room. her room was something different from the rest of the house. it was a thinking room you could say. it was a bit plain though, white walls. original eh? her bed was a queen though. she might not be that rich, but it was something right?

she had silky sheets and all that jazz. she had good sleep and thats all that counts. when it comes to comfort carrie didn't care. boy she was thinking a lot. it wasn't time to think, it was time to take action. but she was curious what was he thinking this very instant about her? would he come back here and try to get more. he was really the only one out of her gang and family who knew where she lived. was that a good idea? let him see where she lived? carrie was starting to think it was a very bad idea. nothing she could do now right? now it was his turn to take his action. she opened the door to her room and pulled him in. she was being slightly gentle. don't ask why but she just was. he didn't need to know why. she closed the door just in case, someone did come. but if the maids were still here, well the night maid.

they would know it was just another one of those days carrie invited a guy over and had fun. they wouldn't suspect a thing. would they? of course not!

ooc: sorry it took so long Dx and sorry for the kinda pp =P and ignore carrie, her thoughts and such. =P shes weird and ignore the whole virgin thing xD

[jake brookes]

After all the waiting and the teasing, they were finally where Jake wanted to be; at Carrie’s house. Just the thought of being alone with her in her house and in her bed made him slightly anxious. But the possibility, though slim, that they would get caught gave him this rush of adrenaline. He has yet to figure out if the rush was a good or bad one. He touched his neck as he waited for her to open the door. He hoped those marks of his were almost gone. Even though his gang members know of his nightly activities, they’d never seen him with a hickey so it might raise suspicions. If he were them, he’d be suspicious. Jake wasn’t the kind of person who gave or received hickeys. He’d never really encountered anyone who gave them up, save for Carrie. He had to admit though, they felt extremely good. He’d probably use the technique in the near future.

The door was open. Jake stepped into the house and looked around a bit. Hm, so now he knows where she lives. That could probably be used as an advantage in the future. Though he wasn’t sure what he would use it for. The only reason he’d need to know where she lived was to have another one of these nightly affairs. That was actually probably going to be the only reason why he’d even think about coming to her home for the second time. If he needed some satisfaction, then now he knew where to go. He probably wouldn’t even warn her in advanced. It would be a lot more fun if he just popped up randomly on her door step and scooped her into a lustful kiss. Jake smirked at the thought. She pressed her body against him and kissed him aggressively. This told him that she really wanted this to happen, and fast. Jake kissed back, his heart racing with delight.

His breathing was becoming staggered as she kissed harder. This was how he liked it with flings such as this. No softness or romance, just hard, aggressive lust. He would have it no other way. It was the only way he could do this without developing some type of feeling for his partner for the night. So far it was working out pretty well. He followed her to her room, shutting the door behind him. There was a sudden change in the way she handled him as she pulled him in. She was a bit gentler than before, which caught him a little off guard but he decided to just brush it off. Jake wrapped his arms around her waist and pushed her towards the bed. He bit his bottom lip lightly, his hands exploring her body.

Jake sat on the edge of the bed and pulled her onto his lap. He kissed her neck and sucked on her skin, smirking to himself. She deserved another. His lips moved up to her lips and kissed them hard.

ooc: I got some of my muse back! Lol, I saw that and I was like -gasp- She's a virgin! xD

[carrie rivers!]

occ: =o i cant wait to see his face when he notices she is xD knowing him he wont even care :]
=o i want to know how shes been like this all her life.

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much to carrie's dismay, this was taking forever. that bothered her a lot, she was trying so hard not to give any lust towards him at all, she didnt want to give him any thoughts or the wrong idea. but wasnt that the same thing and to her it was a bad thing. she was kinda scared, she feared that when this was over she'd want more afterwards. she couldnt let that happen. but she knew he might want more, or would he? she didnt know. she didnt want to think about it right now, but all this caution was starting to get to her. but ignored it and focused on him, she closed her eyes as he pulled her into his lap. she tensed a bit, but pushed it back and relaxed. she held back as he gave her a hickey. she held back a snort and let him do whatever he wanted. he was going to get what he wanted sooner or later anyways.

there was nothing she could do now, she led him here. he knew where she lived, was this a good idea? of course carrie did not care right now. she opened her eyes, looking at him. how much slower could this go eh? she did not want to tell him he was as slow as hell, she could but now wouldnt that be just rude? she was rude, but you had to admit its how others thought of her. when you look at her you must think. 'wow she looks sweet.' but when you talk to her. 'oh great rude'. then you might walk away and try to stay away from her. thats how many were towards her. she meet one person, acted how she has almost all her life, but...she never say them again. she didnt want to know if she'd ever see jake again. it never crossed her mind.

knowing him if he wanted more, he'd come to her again. would this be how their relationship be? just simple flings, nothing more. carrie didnt know really. she sort of enjoyed it. he would be her first, but she would never tell him that though. he could figure it out himself no? she wondered if he would even notice, she looked at him. nah he wouldnt and probably wouldnt even care. oh boy if she got pregnant, hell would soon follow him. she didnt want to end up like that. she would fully slit his throat if she did end up pregnant. she smirked to herself at the thought. at the kiss, she snorted lightly and kissed him back hard as well. boy he wasnt into that romance and all. she wasnt either, but she her moments when she wanted something.

but decided to go 'easy' on the man, though once she got started there was really no stopping her. she pressed her body against his lustfully, but she wasnt really that much. she was just messing with him, nothing more. she just liked messing with men, it was oddly funny to see their reactions. would he know she was messing with him? he probably hadnt even noticed. but who knows if he has or not.

[jake brookes]

Jake figured it was time to speed it up a bit. He was getting more and more anxious to get this started by the second. His lips parted from hers and he began to lift her up off of his lap. Jake tossed her on the bed on her back. He stood in front of the bed, looking down at her. Jake grabbed onto the bottom of his shirt and began to lift it slowly over his head, as if to tease her. He kicked off his shoes and socks, leaving only his jeans and boxers to deal with now. Smirking he reached for her shoes, taking them off and tossing them to the side.

He crawled onto the bed, stradling her legs. His eyes stayed on her face as he began lifting her shirt over her head. Jake admired her little stomach, rubbing his hands over her soft skin. On his usual one night stands, Jake would get it done and over with quickly. But tonight was different. Tonight he was at the house of the leader of the Crypts. The Crypts were Jake's major rivals in the gang business. And for him to be doing this with their leader was something to savor so he'd remember the night he screwed his worst enemy. He tried hard to focus on the physical at the moment. That way he wouldn't get attached emotionally to the girl. That would be especially awful.

Jake licked and sucked the skin around her belly button, getting ever so close to the top of her pants. He unbuttoned and unzipped them, but didn't pull them down quite yet. He first took of his jeans, leaving only his boxers. Jake kicked the jeans to the side and kissed her lips aggressively. His hand slid down her body and into her pants. His hand rubbed the outside of her underwear right where the clitoris was. He figured he should get her warmed up first.

[carrie rivers!]

'god damn it. just take the fucking pants off.' carrie hissed in her mind. he was teasing her? wasnt he. the ass, but she wasn't going to complain. there was no way in hell she was going to complain. carrie's eyes were closed and tight. carrie didnt mind be teased but this much she couldnt handle and like this. she ignored the teasing on some note though. she didnt move, she wouldnt move not with him doing this to her. carrie never did anything like this. not with anyone. unknown to him he would find out how good she was at keeping her innocence. she knew he wouldnt care and on some note carrie didnt either. carrie's eyes opened and looked up at him, trying to focus on his face and not his chest. she didnt want to want more after this.

that was an error and something she didnt want to happen. its never happened before and she didnt want it to happen. would it happen? hn. probably not. carrie wasnt one for love, never had been. she didnt love nor did she care for anyone. she didnt even love herself. well on some note to keep herself alive, but other than that she didnt love herself. carrie's eyes roamed over him, she held back a smirk. her eyes closed tight and she leaned into his hand. she wanted more contact, more than this. but she wouldnt tell him that and plus she wasnt good with body language. aw well. she wouldnt open her mouth and tell him she wanted more contact. she just hoped this would be done soon and she can relax, then get him off her mind. hoped? eh not a good word. she would get him off her mind. that sounded much better to her.

it didnt matter to her if he came back wanting more. she wouldnt fight him, she'd probably let him. but he would have to earn it. and i dont think he would want to earn it. carrie's mind drifted. what would she do after this? probably just ignore him, and pretened nothing happened. it sounded like a really good idea there. she'd make it happen. but what if he came to her again? what would she do? pretend she didnt know him. that right there would be easy. she almost smirked at the though, she did in her mind. ignoring him would be fun to her. she hoped he'd walk away after. if he didn't she would just continue to ignore him and go on her merry way. sounded nice to her. she wanted tihs over with. could he speed it up a bit more? damn.

[jake brookes]

Jake smirked lightly. Yes, he was being a bit of a tease. But let's just say it was a bit of pay back from earlier. She had teased him to the dickens back in that alleyway, and really she had the advantage there because he couldn't get to her sweet spots. But now she was in the open and vulnerable, which made it so much easier for Jake to be a tease. Which probably wasn't the best thing for Carrie, but to him it was fun.

He wondered what would happen between the two of them when this was all over. Maybe fall asleep together. Eh, or he could leave right when they finished their business that way he wouldn't have to worry about snuggling up in his rivals bedroom and spending the night. But then again it would be kind of nice if he could get up in the morning before her and take a look around the place. It would be even nicer if he found something interesting worth keeping. He would without a second thought take it along with him and find some way to use it to his advantage. That was just how he was, if he found something he could use, he'd take it no matter what happened in bed the other night.

He bit his bottom lip lightly as she leaned into his hand, though nothing came from her mouth. That was slightly disappointing. He loved to her women moan and for her to just lay there silently irked him a bit. But he brushed it off, pushing it to the back of his mind. He gripped her underwear between his fingers and began pulling it down her legs, tossing them aside.

Next came his boxers which were removed a little more quickly do to his anxiousness. He had planned to make this quick, yet pleasurable but he soon figured out that he would have to take it a little slower. He began to push himself into her tight opening, causing a slightly confused expression to pop onto his face. What are you a virgin? he questioned, slightly in a joking manner. But as soon as he inched in a little more he knew it was true. This truly surprised him. No offense or anything, but he thought that she would’ve lost her innocence long ago.

[carrie rivers!]

why did he have to be so slow at this? okay, okay she knew she did tease him a bit, but come on! speed this up a bit. she closed her eyes as she waited for him to stop the teasing and get on with this. get this done and over with, then he could leave. or...whatever he planned. she didnt care if he stayed or not. just as long as he keep his mouth shut. carrie didnt have a clue if the maid was gone yet. the maid was quiet and didnt tell her if she was gone, damn...carrie wanted this done and over with. if the nurse heard them, boy that wouldnt be fun to hear about later when the maid walked up to her. of course she knew about the little nights she had, but what if she found out it was with the Bloods leader? what would she think? this wasnt a good idea, but carrie went right along with it.

aw well, carrie would find some way over it and make it stay in the past or well...tomorrow. before the question came, carrie's face itched with pain as she gasped and gripped the sheets with pure shock. she closed her eyes tighter then the question came. she growled slightly as he went deeper. she made the words come out quick and harsh. "yes, what did you think i was hm?" she hissed, pure pain flooded over the words, though her accent was thick, all the same. carrie gripped the sheets, she wasn't going to let go anyway time soon. the pain was unbearable and she wasn't one to like this sort of pain. well her being a virgin wasn't known though. she slowly opened her eyes, looking up at him. she wondered what he thought of her, she could see his face. he was confused. what? did he think she wasnt a virgin?

there was no telling what he thought of her. the truth was, was he thinking of her at all? what were his plans after this? did he have any or was he just winging it? carrie ignored all her thoughts, the pain was being set aside as she closed one eye. she didnt have any plans of him stopping now. once he got in, there was no way he was going to stop. he was going to continue. was he going to stop now? now that he knew, what the whole world didnt know? probably not. why was she even thinking? this wasn't really the time to think at all. what would he say, if anything at all? carrie pushed everything to the side and closed the other eye tight along with the other one. her hands were white with her grip. he'd better not tell her to let go.

fuck you. would be her reply. heh. yes it wasnt nice, but if he was in her place he would know what she was going through. there wasn't much to describe this, okay one word: pain. yes pain. she had never felt this kind of pain, though she could handle it. wait...was she just saying that or was she being truthful? the hands and her eyes could show it all. she was indeed lying to herself. carrie did that sometimes, but not all the time.